So here I am..taking a break on the couch while Ethan takes a little nap. And I just realized it's 7:39 and I hope he goes back to sleep in a couple hours. Oh well, he didnt get a good nap today like he usually does, and when he's sleepy he is Grummmmpy.
I still love being a mommy. Looking back I realized that it took me a little while to bond with Ethan.. I think that it took me a while to get used to the concept that he was really mine. But i must admit, I love this little boy more than anything in the world. I never get tired of caring for him like I did my little sisters (haha). Every single morning when he wakes up at 6am I have no problem waking up to feed him because Im just so happy he's alive and still here. With so much talk about SIDS I cant help but worry. I am always checking Ethan just to make sure he's still breathing. And he sleeps on his tummy so it makes me more paranoid. But most my little sisters slept like that and they were all fine, so I know I shouldnt worry. I just love him so much. I guess that comes with being a parent.
Jason is busy selling everyday from 2-8:30 and I stay home. Our other car has a flat tire and so I don't go anywhere except before 2 so I can take the Taurus. But its not too bad. Usually I dont get too bored. I go on walks, read, and watch too much TV which I actually get really bored of. Its just so hard to do anything when Ethan is this age. He is not the kind of baby that likes to be put down and ignored. He loves to know that you havent forgotten about him and that you are paying attention to him.
Oh did I mention he is 3 months today? It really does feel like he's always been here.
As a mother, I realize just how scary the world is becoming. (I need to get my food storage together pronto!) With all the natural disasters and he ridiculous amount of garbage in the media it makes me a little worried about my baby. I need to continue to strengthen myself so I can teach Ethan what he needs to know.
Okay Ethan is squirming..got to go!